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9:12pm Sunday night:
I want to cut really bad.
I'm confused.
( The reason... )
That's why I want to cut. I'm stressing over it. I wish I knew how to make good decisions. I don't trust my judgment at times. I don't trust myself...
[Edit] I ended up cutting 7 times... [/Edit]
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[18 Oct 2004|09:02pm] |
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Everyday is getting so much harder! I'm trying my hardest to stop cutting and i havn't in about a week i think which is good but i still have so many reason to cut which i hold bottled in! Its so hard but im trying to hang in there! I feel so unwanted in this life as everywhere i do i atleast cause a problem! i always keep quiet at school and when people have a go at me i just pour in tears cuz i have no much pain and they dont know half of it! I feel like im unwanted in this life! Its gettting so hard for me and im only 13! i should be happy not like this! why should i put up with it? maybe im better off dead? sometimes i think that! im only living for my friends and family not for me! im not enjoying this life ... why should i go on?
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[18 Oct 2004|09:20pm] |
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I just can't take life anymore...I Cant belive This..
Why Am I so dumb?
Last night for the first time in a year I tried to killy self..I cut 3 times on my wrist and took some pills and some boooze and jsut sat in my room shaking and crying.... I can't take life here anymore....Someone..Anyone...Please Help..I dont wanna be like this anymore.
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[18 Oct 2004|09:40pm] |
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hey everyone. ive now gone 5 days without cutting...huge step for me. i still feel the need for it though. so ive found something else. its not a lot better...but it helps. it doesnt completly make me feel the same way just curbs the burning to want to cut. i wear a hair elastic on my wrist all day. whenever i feel the need to cut, i simply snap it. it leaves a stinging pain, similar to that of cutting, but no actual marks, or blood. i just thought maybe some of you out there might want to try it for a while....
im out now though.
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